Year Wrap

 Ah! Finally 2022 it's at its end. Whaaaaatt a giant rollercoaster year this was. But this time I could say that this was my year. I'm so proud of myself for getting up every day and facing every single day with no complaints, or I may say very few. Every year of my life has been a dramatic change from my teenage years, but this time it was different. I looked at things differently, I did not lie to myself, and I didn't pretend to be someone else. I was true to myself. 

I've always felt like I'm doing this for too long and one day I'll surely succeed. But life does not come this easy way. You have to make hard choices. After a very long time, I'm writing this. I was so consumed with things happening in my life. The past few months have been so hectic not with work but with an enormous amount of mental degradation. I always felt that I'm losing myself bit by bit. Living on your own is not as easy as I thought. Slowly and gradually I could see messed up adults to whom I always looked up. The last few weeks have been a lot dealing with the fear of abandonment, anxiety and multiple breakdowns. Being a responsible adult is shitty but anywho you have to be one. 

But in all this, I have some of my really closest people cheerleading for me now and then. I genuinely appreciate them not knowing how I'll pay back them. 

The year made me go through all hardships be it some major health issue of my closest person, be it love relationships, friendships, career, academics and whatnot. But all these were worth joy and gratitude. I met some amazing people who were genuinely generous towards me and made me realise that I belong in this world. I was caught up with so much that I did lose some connection but that too made me close to my favourite people. 

But I can say that this year made me stronger and happier. I learnt to express myself clearly and put my stand whenever needed. I met a person who is the best thing happened to me till this date and every single day I express my thankfulness to have him in my life. This year made much more sense just because of him. 

I hope and pray that upcoming year becomes more productive, purposeful and filled with all the best opportunities that helps me to grow towards my goal.